Hey again folks!

So I thought I'd make a quick journal about some stuff. Perhaps it'll prove I haven't actually committed suicide or something yet, too.

Otherwise, I've tremendously improved over my state of mind, which feels so calming now. Still, sometimes it still feels like I wanna still think about some things to pass the time, but otherwise, thinking critically I suppose is who I am in a way.

I'm starting to think now somehow my emotions and some paranoia clash a bit at times too, aswell as hormones, and it pretty much depresses me. Maybe some stuff from several years ago in a big fat pit of depression, hopelessness, and the delusion I fell into where I felt like I would suicide for others because my life were so much inferior, would've been necessary. I felt dead inside. Not something I wanna return to.

On my feelings towards art, it might be either the feeling now that I've simply forgotten out of intense practice of anatomy and obsessive proportion of people and other stuff made me sorta forget how to even have fun with it. The times where I'd stay up all night, and then get into a bit of a vampire routine, where I then had to force myself awake with coffee and then draw throughout the day for 8-9 hours or so to practice and have something to do so I could actually sleep right. But it caused a bit of a art block after a while too.

Otherwise, maybe I'll get some comics up, since I enjoy that sort of planning storyline thing, but overall, just have fun with it. Can't really say I have deep feelings for art though, but I suppose it's just something I do. I don't really know what I should think of it. Something I should do for life? Hobby? Yeah, that sort of thing.

... Maybe I should actually get something interesting to write about next time, though. >.>